Scared you, didn't I?!
You thought I had forgotten the url to my blog, huh?
Let me just tell you that life is kicking my booty. We're surviving but not really having fun yet. Sam is a fabulously easy-going baby, but a 5 yr old, 4 yr old, 3 yr old, and a newborn....yep, kicking my booty!
I have lots of pictures to share from the last month that I've been gone but will save those for separate posts so it looks like I'm blogging again.
Along with life inside my own house wearing me out, our church family has been dealing with a lot lately too. My pastor's father (and close family friend) passed away about three months ago and then shortly after that, we found out a sweet, sweet close friend has colon and liver cancer and is now going through chemo. As if that's not enough, my pastor's 17-year-old son died three weeks ago from injuries sustained in a car accident.
God has showed up amazingly within our church family.
I've definitely been saddened, disappointed, and even angry at God, but I know that God's will for my life is to be sanctified, be joyful always, pray continually, and give thanks in ALL circumstances (1 Thes. 4:3, 5:16-18). I exist for His glory, and even though it is hard to say, my children also exist for His glory.
I hold my children up to God with open hands wanting only His glory. I definitely could not have said that three weeks ago, but seeing my pastor praise God through the pain and wanting only His glory has taught me that God was waiting on me to surrender my hold on my children. They are not mine, they're God's. My single desire for their lives is to bring glory to God!
It's so good to be back blogging...putting my thoughts on 'paper' and helping to work through them in my own head. God is good and we are immeasurably blessed!
3 comments:
Amen!
Prayers sent your way.
And, of course your 4 are kicking your tail, but you'll get it down soon enough. Don't put too much pressure on yourself to be "normal"...I always do that when I have a newborn. Can't wait to see the pics. : )
I only said "of course" because it's supposed to be that way and no one (at least no one who's had any children) expects any different.
I am sorry to hear that you had a hard time with your close friends at church.
Don´t you think it is strange it is so hard for us humans to really leave everything, including children, to God? I mean, He is so big, we are so small, and still we want to cling on to anything. I sometimes find it hard to remember that He is really, truly, only good and loves me, no matter what. No wonder He laughs at us sometimes.
I hope you will be truly blessed also through these times.
Can´t wait to see more pictures of Mr. Cuteness.
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